continually bombard themselves with negative thoughts: "I cannot do this,
this is not for me, I am weak, I must hide because who I am is bad, the world
is not a safe place, this will probably go wrong". Etcetera, etcetera.
this happen? Why do we do this? The reason for this self-destructive behavior
is that all of us have at some point, whether in this life or a past life, been
traumatized. Traumas are negative experiences that are so intense that our
personality cannot handle them; a part of our awareness "freezes" and
remains stuck in time.
example, someone who in a past life experienced how their country was
occupied during a war. People were
picked up from the streets and suddenly disappeared. There was the
continuous threat of violence and you could not feel safe anywhere. The past life personality suffered
intensely from the overwhelming fear and could not come to terms with the
situation for the rest of their life. A part of this person was traumatized and
has become stuck in time, stuck in the reality of war, and keeps sending
messages to the present day personality as if it is still war: "Life is
dangerous, there is much violence out there, you cannot trust people, you are
powerless." The current personality does not realize that these persistent
thoughts are related to a very different reality; he simply believes the
messages and becomes used to viewing life through the eyes of the traumatized
past life personality. Unfamiliar people are regarded with suspicion, there is
a sense of doom and a fear of violence always in the background, and the belief
that it is best to lock yourself in your house, because if you go out you may
Trauma acts like a black
part of us is the biggest source of the fears from which we suffer. Note that
fear always tells us that there is something out there which is dangerous, hostile, and harmful. Fear makes you
focus on the outside world as the source of your problems, and not on the
trauma itself. When someone who is terrified of dogs is in the same room with a
dog, their entire awareness will be focused on the dog, to the exclusion of
everything else. But most of the time, the dog is not the problem; the real
issue is their fear of dogs. If you keep on focusing on what is outside you,
your perception becomes distorted. You focus on what you are afraid of and thus
you tend to see it everywhere; your fear exaggerates the actual danger and you
waste a lot of energy avoiding it.
reactive pattern creates a vicious circle: the fear narrows down your
perception of reality in such a way that reality seems to confirm and justify
your fears even more. When you read the paper, your attention is automatically
drawn to news about dogs attacking people or spreading infectious diseases.
When you walk on the street, dogs seem to look at you in a threatening way,
ready to jump at you. This circle keeps the traumatized part of you imprisoned,
and that part of you cannot be released until the circle is broken. A
traumatized part of the personality, caught in a vicious circle, can be viewed
as a black hole inside us. It sucks
up energy, it sucks up light, and it reverts us back into the past, to moments
in time where our awareness became frozen and stuck.
have an inborn fear of travelling. When we went on a trip to France this
summer, I continually felt that the car would break down, and I saw signs of
that everywhere. Just before we left, the belt of my trousers broke, an ominous
sign, I thought. On the road, I noted stranded cars everywhere. When we were
taking a break at a parking spot, I thought I saw traces of oil behind our car.
On the car's dashboard, a message light appeared that told us we should go to
the garage to change the gear box oil (this later turned out to be a mistake in
the dashboard's computer). At another time, I noticed some tools in the back of
the car, which to me felt like a sign that the car needed fixing. Etcetera,
trip I decided to go within, into my black hole. I saw there a man lying at the
side of a road, and I could only see his back. As I approached him, I was
shocked; I saw his face and his eyes were stabbed out. He was far away from
home, and the people there had not trusted him and had done this to him. He
died, thinking of home, and wishing he had never left it.
past, I hardly ever travelled, nor did I drive a car. I thought I had very good
reasons for this behavior, but I was unaware of the black hole inside me. Now,
I travel often and the many trips we make bring me a lot of joy. All over the
world, we have wonderful meetings with like-minded people and we enjoy visiting
beautiful places in nature.
with people who are in a black hole, i.e. who have a narrow and fear-based
perception of a particular issue, is hardly possible. When you try, they will
immediately point to countless "facts" and reasons to back up their
worldview. They refuse to open up to the possibility that their fear - and not
the outside world - is actually the problem. They are convinced their fear is
caused by actual threats in the outside world and is therefore reasonable and
justified. If you do not agree with them, it is you who is being naïve: you
refuse to see the obvious facts which are right under your nose. The bigger the
fear, the more rigid and firm the beliefs. Many websites on the Internet, which
are full of ominous predictions and conspiracy theories, originate from black
holes on the inner level.
may become so powerful that they suck up and take over the whole personality;
in such cases paranoia (extreme suspicion) will arise. Everything people say or
do is interpreted in a negative way, which makes normal communication
impossible. Threats and conspiracies are perceived to be all around. Friends and family members who try
to break the spell of your obsessions, are considered to be under the influence
of evil forces themselves. The paranoid
persona has become completely isolated and imprisoned within their own mind.
extent we all suffer from paranoia. Almost all of us have some inner black hole
regarding a particular issue which distorts our perception and our relationship
with other people.
What can you do?
1. Realise that there is a black hole inside
and most important step is to recognise that a part of you has been traumatised
and is sending messages to you which are not right. Whenever you notice that
your thoughts are particularly negative, or whenever you feel disproportionally
afraid of something and you expect the worst, be prepared to go within, into
the black hole, and face the traumatized part.
yourself the following questions: "Could it be that there is a black hole
inside me? Could it be that there is a traumatized part of me which distorts my
entire view of reality, a part that shuts me off from all the good and positive
things that happen around me? Is my outlook on reality and my attitude toward
people based on fear or on love?"
2. Enter the black hole
the black hole, not to suffer, but to bring light and love into this part of
you. Make an image of the traumatized part. Imagine, for example, that it is a
lost child, and realize that it needs a lot of love and caring. Connect with
this child, look into its eyes, and feel what it needs to gradually release the
you find yourself harboring negative thoughts, gloomy feelings, or irrational
fears about life, about people or society, encourage yourself to go within.
Search for the black hole inside you: the prison of the traumatized part. Be
present as a loving angel; bring comfort, reassurance, and light.
3. Tell yourself the
of John says: "The truth shall set you free." Words that are
true carry enormous power. Truth orginates from love, not from fear. Feel the love available in the
universe; feel the love of mother Earth for humanity; feel the love inside you
and approach the traumatized part of you from this love. From that source,
formulate a few short sentences and frequently repeat them aloud.
- Life is
good to me.
- The Earth
loves humanity and helps us.
is awakening and becoming more aware of its unity; this unity is starting to
manifest itself everywhere.
this kind of true message is a very powerful instrument when you wish to
relinquish fear-based thoughts.
there is a lot of literature on "positive thinking". People stand in
front of the mirror and start to repeat positive messages to themselves:
affirmations. This only makes sense if these messages are true, and they are
true when they are based on love.
repeat to themselves: "I am rich, I am rich", hoping that reality
will conform to their intention. But is this affirmation based on love, or on
the fear of lack, the fear that the universe will not take care of them? If the
latter is the case, the affirmation will not work.
start endlessly repeating affirmations, go back to the source. Connect with the
love inside your heart, and see what messages come up from this well. Start
with loving yourself and embracing the traumatized part of you. Affirmations based on fear do not work.
affirmation is right, it is not really essential that you repeat it often. Have
you ever experienced that someone said something to you that deeply rang true?
Was it necessary that this message be repeated all the time? It probably was
not. If a sentence that really feels true to you is spoken out loud with the
right intensity, you do not have to say it over and over. One time a day is
the first and most important step in this three-step process is to honestly
face the black hole inside us. As soon as you realize that fear is distorting
your perception, you can start to embrace that fear with love, and from that
love find affirmations which are true and effective.
© Gerrit Gielen 2014
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