Dear friends, I am Mary, mother of Jeshua on Earth. It is such a joy for me to be among you, to be in your circle of Light. I wish to celebrate with you this morning, and to envelop you in a mantle of sweet love, very light and gentle – feel it.
Your hearts are in need of Light. For all of you, this is a heavy place to be. Your natural state of being is joy, playfulness, creativity. Your often feel smothered by the heavy energies on Earth, and you feel disconnected from Home. I want to bring the energies of Home, the original source, to you today. So breathe it in and remember who you are. I want you to bathe in the Light of your soul and the connection between our souls.
Imagine that the Light of reconnection and oneness is flowing through all your body. Make sure this flow visits every part of your body, especially the parts in need of healing. Let it flow all the way down to your feet. There is now a halo of Light around us all. Feel how you can relax and be safe within this halo of Light, even though you may sense that some parts of you are tired and feel heavy. That is okay – let everything be as it is.
You all carry a very precious Light in your soul. When you are connected to this Light you feel one with the universe. This is the divine experience for which you are looking. You are not yet aware of this inner Light when you start out as a young soul on your journeys, so you look for it outside yourself, in the external world. You are truly like a child looking for guidance, but your real mission is to find the guidance within, and doing that truly becomes the birth of your Divinity.
Most souls spend many lifetimes throughout the ages trying to find Light outside themselves, and that is a part of growing up. But you are now becoming a mature soul. You are aware of the need to go within, because you have tried all the other ways. You have tried to find the Light by gaining worldly power or possessions. You have tried to find the Light by creating a big ego and gaining recognition from the world. And you have tried to find the Light by losing yourself in romantic relationships; by trying to merge with another soul. These are really the stages that every soul goes through on its evolutionary journey.
But at some point, the soul discovers that those things do not work, and then the soul goes through a deep inner crisis. As it is maturing, it discovers deep emotions of loneliness, separation, and fear, and there is a growing awareness that nothing outside itself can fill the void. This stage of a soul’s journey can be called "the dark night of the soul". The soul can not lose itself any more in anything external, and yet it does not know how to nurture itself, how to go within. This is when loneliness can hit you hardest, and when you are at this point, as often happens in relationships, you realize you can not find outside yourself what you are really seeking. So there is no other road to follow than the road that leads to your heart.
You are the only one who can acknowledge, and thereby ignite, your own fire, and you often wonder: “How do I do this?” That is your perpetual question: “How do I become enlightened; how do I enlighten myself?” And the answer is that it is not you who is doing it. The "you" who has been searching, who has felt lonely, who despairs, is not the one who is becoming enlightened. Essentially, enlightenment occurs when you give up the "you" part of yourself by releasing it. You completely kneel down within yourself and you give up. Your ego bows down, because it acknowledges the fact that it does not know a way out – it does not have the answers. Therefore, not knowing the answers, and being in the "dark night of the soul", is often the heralding of enlightenment. It is when you give up that you become open to something new, something you are not able to control. This "something" – the energy of your soul – has been knocking on your door for a very long time.
In truth, you have been afraid of your own divine Love and Light, because from a human perspective you can not control it, and so you have resisted your own Light and source of joy. This is very paradoxical for us to see from our side, because the most precious thing you seek is already present within you! And therein lies the answer to your emotions of despair and loneliness.
When you stop trying to change yourself, when you stop trying to make your life "work", you are opening to a greater force that wants to carry you with lightness and joy. Once you are in this flow of lightness, you will connect with others who are in the same flow and your heart will be filled with joy. Meeting with your spiritual family on Earth will be one of the deepest sources of happiness and fulfillment for you. But before this happens you have to let go. You have to entrust yourself to the flow of your heart. Do not try to manipulate and control life so much. Life becomes much easier and lighter when you live it from the heart.
The most difficult step is to acknowledge that you do not know the way. Every human ego contains pride, which often shuts you off from the flow of love, so you have to let go of your pride. This is what you do when you connect with the wounded and vulnerable child within yourself, and that is a deeply spiritual thing to do. By recognizing the core of your vulnerability, you are actually coming closer to other people. By becoming aware of your own wounded child within, you are also seeing it in the eyes of other people. Truly embracing your own darkness, your own vulnerability, builds a bridge between you and other people. It naturally creates compassion and understanding in your heart.
When you are inside the ego, you tend to judge and criticize other people. You need to do this to maintain your identity. But when you look at them with eyes that see their inner child, you recognize that they are wounded humans, just like you, and so it becomes easier to reach out to them. And it also becomes easier to receive support and love from other humans. This is what it means to create a circle of Light; to acknowledge your vulnerability, to release the need for control, and to release your pride. To the ego, this seems to be a very high price to pay, but it is actually small compared to the loneliness and despair you have to suffer when you are clinging to the ego.
At this time, many people are yearning for connecting from the heart. My message is especially meant for people who are ready to take the leap: to let go of your judgments, of your criticism – especially of yourself. Open fully to the immense source of Light available to you. You have built a prison around yourself, and I am inviting you to step out of it. You can do it now, you are ready. All you have to do is simply to ask. You do not have to fight or struggle to get out of the prison. You can simply ask Spirit, or whatever you call the endless source of this universe. Or you may do it by way of prayer: “Release me, I want to be Home again”.
Home is within you all, and when you open the doors of your heart, the Light will shine so brightly! Your Light will bring joy to others, and you will joyfully connect with other people, but you will also be at peace when you are alone. You will not need other people to be fulfilled, but it will be an experience of enrichment and abundance to meet them, especially soulmates.
I would like to end by asking you to imagine that we are planting a seed today. See it as a small seed of Light that each one of you is holding. Imagine that you are putting that seed into the Earth and you wish it well from your heart. You entrust this ray of Light to Earth, and then you let it go. You release all control, or desire to manipulate, or to know. Just see what happens. The Earth will someday return this energy to you in the form of a small miracle entering your life. You will ask yourself: “Why did this happen to me?” And maybe you will want to ask a psychic or medium about that, and I would tell you: "Do not analyze it with your head, just receive the gifts given by the universe".
So let us now for a few moments enjoy the halo of Light that is still around us and has expanded by now. The Light, at this moment, is warm and golden. Please know that you are always connected to your soul family. We from the other side are always next to you. Accept our love.
© Pamela Kribbe