Life inside us yearns for consciousness and consciousness in us desires life, while Earth offers us life through our bodies and our emotions. These emotions represent life inside us, like a river always flowing, and at times wild and uncontrollable, so that you may feel as if you are drowning and unsure toward where you are heading. Life has freedom at its heart – life wants to live! For life, to be alive is a purpose in itself; it is weary of "outside" purposes, you might say. And this purpose can be sensed when you look at nature: the birds, the mountains, the flowers. Nature is intensely alive, and as you witness nature's carefree surrender to the forces and cycles of life, you may realize that the meaning of life cannot be outside life, but must be inside the experience of life itself.
However, experiencing life requires consciousness. The more conscious and aware you are, the more abundant and full your life becomes. As a human being, you are encouraged to expand your consciousness, so that life can evolve and express itself in ever more creative ways. Consciousness brings spaciousness and higher freedom. When you look at the animals in nature, there is pure aliveness inside them and yet they remain – more or less – confined to the realm of their instincts, their animal nature. You as a human being also have an animal nature, yet at the same time there is something inside you – a spark of light and awareness – that gives you the possibility of transforming your animal nature by adding something to it. This extra something is your consciousness, which permeates life with meaning, direction, and, eventually, love.
This consciousness is you; it is the divine spark inside you. This divine spark wants to merge and dance with life, with incarnation, with the flesh and blood of your body. Your original God-spark has a desire to experience life to the fullest, to absorb it in all the cells of your body for the sake of the experience itself. Consciousness yearns for life and life longs for consciousness. If you let them dance together, you will feel find meaning and fulfillment in your life.
You often think you need to achieve something particular in your life, and you are focused on a kind of goal or ultimate purpose. If you are still caught up in the ways of society and are mostly "in the world", you may be focused on external goals such as a job or a successful career, a relationship or a marriage, children, a house. When you are oriented more toward spirituality and the inner world, you may strive for purification, inner balance, enlightenment. The latter values may seem more worthy goals than the external ones, but even here – in the desire for enlightenment – you are not touching the core reason why you are here. Behind all your striving and goal-oriented searching there is often a denial of life itself. You are here to experience life – with full abandon – and to subsequently wrap your consciousness around this experience, like arms embracing life and supporting it so that it flowers and evolves.
You often battle with life. The original power of consciousness has for most of you dwindled into the energy of thinking and analyzing: the energy of the head. You have emotions, desires, and passions, and then you start to think: "How should I deal with this? Is it good or bad? How can I get a grip on it, control it, change it? How can I achieve my goals?" In this way, life inside you – in its free and wild manifestation – becomes cut off and narrowed down. Life is then opposed, even attacked, by thinking. Instead of a mutual dance between life and consciousness, a gap arises and they become separated inside you. Life becomes narrowed down to pent-up emotions, and consciousness gets confined to thinking, often worrying.
This separation has happened in virtually every one of you: a split happens between the thinking part of you, which judges and seeks to control, and the emotional part, which has a life of its own and cannot really be curbed by your minds. You become torn apart, and life and consciousness cannot get together inside you. This is why you come to perceive yourself as consisting of a "higher" self and a "lower" self. The thinking part is not able to deal constructively with your passions and emotions. Almost all religions on Earth seek to control or "transcend" the emotional and the sexual energy in human beings, thereby damaging the living source of creativity and inspiration in humans. Only very few spiritual teachings fully embrace life – nature and Earth – and acknowledge it as the equal partner of consciousness.
Now, what I am telling you here is not a mere abstract tale. You all have lived though this painful struggle with your own human nature, this artificial gap between life and consciousness, and not just in this lifetime, but in previous ones, as well. You know what it is like to feel torn apart inside, split apart from your true self, the real you. Your true self is very much alive. Compared to your true self, you are half dead!
There is so much you are not allowing yourself to do or to feel. You carry such a lot of inner taboos within you: "This feeling, or craving, or thought is bad; I should overcome it; am I still not rid of it?" A sense of failure and falling short constantly accompanies you. In this way, life cannot reach out to you, nor can you reach out to it. You have a troubled relationship with your own human nature. This prevents the soul from entering your life and being.
The soul wants to live! It wants to show itself to you through your emotions, desires, and dreams; through the light and the dark, the "good" and the "bad". The soul wants to dress itself in your human nature, your living body. You are denying it access because you are not letting yourselves be what you are, and I am not criticizing you for doing this. My point is to make you aware that you are coming from a long tradition in which people tried to control life: both inner life, your human nature, and outer life, Earth itself. My point is to make you aware of this desire to control life so you can start letting go of it.
You are the bearers of a long history. It is meaningful that you are here right now, in Egypt, at this place and point in time, and I would like to say something specifically about this event. In ancient Egypt a lot of knowledge was available about the inner world and the psyche, and there was an open connection with other realms outside Earth. The use of psychic powers and the third eye was much more common then than it is today. There was no split between the normal and the paranormal. Psychic energy, the energy of intention and focus, was applied to many everyday endeavors, and it was used in constructing buildings, and in politics, warfare, and trade. Spirituality was part of daily existence and influenced every part of life.
There was, on the one hand, a profound awareness of the power of the human psyche and its ability to create and alter physical reality. Esoteric knowledge reached a high level in ancient Egypt. But on the other hand, there existed a great deal of imbalance and social injustice. Throughout many centuries, power elites held on tightly to their privileged positions and prevented ordinary people from expanding their consciousness. There was both a flowering and a repression of consciousness. Psychic power abuse and manipulation were commonly used, and the original inspiration entering Egyptian culture from other realms in the universe was to a large extent stifled and maimed by those in power. The extra-terrestrial influences I am speaking about contained pure seeds of light aimed at helping humanity acquire more freedom and awareness. The knowledge that was channeled to Earth was meant to enable humans to join their animal nature with their soul's presence; to create a bridge between the personality and the soul, between life and consciousness.
Egypt was the cradle and birthing ground for deep esoteric knowledge coming to Earth from highly developed places in the universe. That knowledge and consciousness was received by the hearts and minds of people living at that time who were open to the influx of this bright and revolutionary new awareness. They were the artists, the writers, the common people with an open heart, and also some rulers who looked beyond the need for power. The art, the myths, and the monumental buildings of old Egypt testify to the depth and power of this cosmic impulse. There is a kind of magic in the culture of ancient Egypt which you can feel calling to you as you walk among the remnants of the temples and tombs.
Many among you have lived past lives in this ancient era. You know both the light and the dark side of this culture. You innately sense what happened with the esoteric knowledge and third eye powers: how they were abused for the purpose of power struggles and warfare. Some of you were channels or psychics yourselves and felt a real life connection with supernatural force fields and higher energies. You were in a dilemma that tore you apart: how to express your knowledge and inspiration in an environment that might use it for personal gain or to suppress freedom and truth. There is pain inside you about the abuse of power that took place, and you may still feel haunted by the fear of compromising your integrity if you now start to use your gifts for psychic reading, healing, and channeling.
I am here to tell you that you can do this now; that you can use your ability to sense and channel energies and to share your knowledge of the inner realm and of life and death. The impulse of light and awareness that was the origin of the highest expressions of Egyptian culture is still waiting to be fully received. It could not be absorbed completely at the time, because human consciousness on Earth was not yet ready. You can compare that situation to the birth of a still-born baby. It was carried to Earth, but it could not yet live here; the circumstances were too harsh, the baby too fragile. Yet even though it was still born, the child was there and it was noticed; it was recognized by some as the carrier of light and freedom.
You are called today to bring your wisdom, your intuition and clarity of mind to the world; to share it from an open heart, without concern for the abuse of power, and to honor your humanness. You are here to complete a mission, to fulfill a promise that you once held very dear. You are bringers of light; you are here to create change. It is now possible to do this without fear of losing your freedom and integrity.
You live in a different time now. The collective consciousness is reaching the limits of fear and separation. There is a growing awareness that change is needed, and not just on the external level, but inner change, a change of heart. Humanity is starting to realize that the energy most needed now is love. Love is the energy of connection; it recognizes what binds people, what makes them the same; it creates empathy and compassion. Love is a builder of bridges, and love is the bridge between the human personality and the soul, between life and consciousness, between Earth and Heaven.
Love's presence is growing in human society at large. More and more, people are encouraged to honor and express their individual nature, and this is a sign of love. Being free to explore who you are and how to express yourself – whether you are female, male, young, old, poor, rich, etc – is now regarded, more and more, as a desirable goal, and this is incredible progress. Even though reality does not yet match up to the ideal in many areas of the world, the fact that this goal is now publicly expressed as worthy and essential is a sign of expanding consciousness.
Free expression of your individual nature was not possible in ancient Egypt, or only in a very limited way. You have been born in a world today in which there is growing room for life again. The human personality with all its passions, emotions, and quirks can come into the light of awareness now and be redeemed. This is really the true purpose of spirituality, of consciousness: to honor and respect life in its most individual expression, which is the human soul, and to help it flower and expand with creativity and joy.
For all of you now, the way to join life with the consciousness within is to embrace your aliveness, your emotions, your human nature. Embrace it non-judgmentally; accept yourself as you are and be free! Let go of spiritual judgments; do not repress yourself, but allow your open consciousness to penetrate deeply into your darkest emotions. This is the alchemy you are looking for. When you allow consciousness and life, awareness and emotion, to dance together in a loving embrace, you become free. You then learn to understand the messages behind your darkest and brightest emotions, and you work with them instead of battling them.
Life is emotion. Life, in the form of emotion, calls out to consciousness: "See me, feel me, fill me with your light!" The soul is the carrier of consciousness and the more you embrace your emotions with awareness, the more your soul can come down into, and merge with, your personality. When this happens, you feel alive and joyful, even though problems come and go, and you are faced with the typical challenges with which all humans are faced. Joy is the surest sign that you are becoming whole: a merging of life and consciousness, always moving and developing, and at the same time safely held by the arms of Eternity.
Books by Pamela Kribbe
- The Lightworker series and The Healing series are also available as audio books -