Jeshua channeled by Pamela Kribbe
The galactic history of
The birth of the soul
Lightworker souls were born long before the earth and humanity came into
Souls are birthed in waves. There is a sense in which souls are eternal
with no beginning and no end. But in another sense, they are born at some
point. It is at this point that their consciousness reaches a sense of individual self. Before this
point, they are already there as a possibility.
However there is no consciousness yet of me and other.
The consciousness of “me” arises when somehow a demarcation line is
drawn between groups of energies. We have to revert to metaphors in order to
Think of the ocean for a moment and imagine it to be a huge field of
flowing energies, streams that constantly mingle and part. Imagine that a
diffuse consciousness pervades the entire ocean. Call it the ocean spirit if
you want. After a while, concentrations of consciousness arise at certain
places in the ocean. Consciousness here is more focused, less diffuse than in
its direct surroundings. All over the ocean there is an ongoing differentiation
which leads to the development of transparent forms within the ocean. These
forms, which are focused points of consciousness, move independently from their
environment. They experience themselves as different from the ocean (spirit).
What occurs here is the birth of a rudimentary sense of self or
Why did focused points of consciousness arise in some parts of the ocean
rather than in others? This is very hard to explain. Can you feel, however,
that there is something very natural about this proceeding? When you throw
seeds on a bed of earth, you notice that the little plants that sprout will
each grow in their own time and rhythm. One will not grow as large or as easily
as the others. Some will not grow at all. There is differentiation across the
field. Why? The energy of the ocean (the ocean spirit) intuitively seeks the
best expression possible for all its multiple streams or layers of
During the formation of individual points of consciousness within the
ocean, there is a power that works on the ocean from the outside, or so it
seems. This is the power of divine inspiration, which can be conceived as the
male aspect of That which created you. Whereas the ocean represents the female,
receptive side, the male aspect may be visualized as light beams pouring into
the ocean, which enhance the process of differentiation and the separation into
individual lumps of consciousness. They are like the rays of the sun that warm
The ocean and the light beams together form an entity or being that may
be referred to as an archangel. It is an archetypical
energy with both a male and a female aspect and it is an angelic energy that manifests or expresses itself to you. We will
come back to the notion of an archangel in more detail in the last chapter of
Part I, called “Your Light Self.”
After the soul is born as an individual unit of consciousness, it slowly
leaves the oceanic state of oneness that had been its home for a long time. The
soul increasingly becomes aware of being separate and on its own.
With this awareness, a sense of loss or lack arises in the soul for the
first time. When the soul embarks upon its road of exploration as an individual
entity, the soul will carry with it a certain longing for wholeness, a desire
to belong to something bigger than itself. Deep within itself, the soul will
keep the memory of a state of consciousness in which everything is one, in
which there is no “me” and “other.” This is what it considers “home” to be: a
state of ecstatic oneness, a place of complete safety and fluidity.
With this memory in the back of its mind, the soul starts its travels
throughout reality, throughout countless fields of experience and inner
exploration. The newborn soul is driven by curiosity and has a great need for experience. This was the element that
was absent in the oceanic state of oneness. The soul now is able to freely explore
anything it wishes to explore. It is free to search for wholeness in all sorts
Within the universe, there are countless planes of reality to explore.
The earth is simply one of them and one that came into being relatively late,
speaking on a cosmic scale. Planes of reality or dimensions always originate
from inner needs or desires. Like all creations, they are the manifestation of
inner visions and ponderings. Earth was created from an inner desire to bring
together elements from different realities that clashed with each other. Earth
was intended to be a melting pot for a great array of influences. We will
explain this further below. For now suffice it to say that the earth was a
relative late-comer on the cosmic stage and that many souls lived many lives of
exploration and development on other planes of reality (planets, dimensions,
star systems, etc.), long before the earth was even born.
Lightworkers are souls who lived many, many lives on these other planes
before they ever incarnated on earth. This is what distinguishes them from
“earth souls” as we will call them for the sake of convenience. Earth souls are
souls who incarnated in physical bodies on earth relatively early in their
development as individualized units of consciousness. One might say that they
started their cycle of earth lives when their souls were in their infant stage.
At that time, the lightworker souls were “grown-ups.” They had been through
many experiences already and the type of relationship they bore with earth souls
may be likened to that of parent and child.
The development of life
and consciousness on earth
On earth, the evolution of life forms was closely intertwined with the
inner development of the earth souls. Although no soul is bound to a particular
planet, the earth souls could well be said to be the natives of your planet.
This is because their growth and expansion roughly coincides with the
proliferation of life forms on earth.
When individual units of consciousness are born, they are somewhat
similar to single physical cells as regards structure and possibility. Just
like individual cells have a relatively simple structure, the inner movements
of a newborn consciousness are transparent. Not much differentiation has set in
yet. There is a world of possibilities at their feet, both physical and
spiritual. The development from a newborn unit of consciousness to a type of
consciousness that is self-reflective and able to observe and react to its
environment may roughly be compared to the development of a single-celled
organism to a complex living organism interacting with its environment in
We are here comparing the development of soul consciousness with the
biological development of life and we do so not just by way of metaphor. In
fact the biological development of life as it took place on earth should be
seen against the background of a spiritual need for exploration and experience
on the part of the earth souls. This need or desire for exploration called into
being the rich variety of life forms on earth. As we said, creation is always
the result of an inner movement of consciousness. Although the evolution
theory, as presently embraced by your science, correctly describes the
development of life forms on your planet to some extent, it completely misses
the inner drive, the “hidden” motive behind this deeply creative process. The
proliferation of life forms on earth was due to inner movements on the soul
level. As always, spirit precedes and creates matter.
At first, earth souls incarnated in physical forms which best fitted
their still rudimentary sense of self: single-celled organisms. After a period
of gaining experience and integrating this within their consciousness, the need
arose for more complex means of physical expression. That is how more complex
life forms were propelled into being. Consciousness created physical forms to
answer the inner needs and desires of the earth souls whose collective
consciousness primarily inhabited the earth.
The formation of new species and the incarnation of earth souls into
individual members of those species represent a great experiment of life and
consciousness. Although evolution is consciousness-driven, not driven by
accident or incident, it does not follow a predetermined line of development.
This is because consciousness itself is free and unpredictable.
The earth souls experimented with all kinds of animal life forms. They
inhabited several types of physical bodies in the animal kingdom but they did
not all experience the same line of development. The soul’s path of development
is much more fanciful and adventurous than you assume. There are no laws above
or outside of you. You are the law for you. So for instance, if you desire to
experience life from the standpoint of a monkey, you may at some point in time
find yourself living in a monkey’s body, from birth onward or as a temporary
visitor. The soul, especially the young soul, craves experience and expression.
This urge to explore accounts for the diversity of life forms that flourished
Within this great experiment of life, the rise of the human life form
marked the beginning of an important stage within the development of soul
consciousness on earth. Before explaining this in greater detail, we will first
discuss the stages of inner soul development in general.
infant stage, maturity, old age
If we look at the development of soul consciousness after it is born as
an individual unit, it roughly goes through three inner stages. These stages
are there independent of the particular plane of reality (planet, dimension,
star system) that consciousness chooses to inhabit or experience.
1) The stage of innocence (paradise)
2) The stage of ego (“sin”)
3) The stage of “second innocence” (enlightenment)
One may compare these stages metaphorically with infancy, maturity and
After souls are born as individual units of consciousness, they leave
the oceanic state of oneness which they remember as blissful and totally safe.
They then go on to explore reality in a whole new way. They slowly grow more
aware of themselves and the way in which they are unique in comparison with
their fellow travelers. They are very receptive and sensitive at this stage,
like a young child who looks at the world with wide open eyes, expressing
curiosity and innocence.
This stage may be called paradisiacal, since the experience of oneness
and safety is still fresh in the memory of the newborn souls. They are still
close to home; they do not yet question their right to be who they are.
As their journey continues, the memory of home fades while they immerse
themselves in different types of experiences. Everything is new in the
beginning and everything is uncritically absorbed at the infant stage. A new
stage sets in when the young soul starts
to experience itself as the focal point of its world. It then truly starts
to realize that there is such a thing as “me” and “other.” It starts to
experiment with how it can influence its environments by acting upon this
realization. The very notion of doing something that stems from your own
consciousness is new. Before there was a more or less passive taking in of what
flows by. Now there is a growing sense within the soul of its power to exert
influence on what it experiences.
This is the start of the ego stage.
The ego originally represents the ability to use your will to affect the
outer world. Please note that the original function of the ego is simply that which enables the soul to experience
itself fully as a separate entity. This is a natural and positive
development within the evolution of the soul. The ego is not “bad” in and of
itself. It does however tend to be expansive or aggressive. When the newborn
soul discovers its ability to influence its environment, it falls in love with
the ego. Deep down, there still is a painful memory within the now maturing
soul; it remembers home, it remembers paradise lost. The ego seems to hold an
answer to this pain, this homesickness. It seems to enable the soul to actively
get a grip on reality. It intoxicates the still young soul with the illusion of
If there ever was a fall from grace or a fall from paradise, it was
this: the young soul consciousness becoming entranced by the possibilities of
the ego, by the promise of power. However the very purpose of consciousness
being born as individual souls is to explore, to experience everything there is: paradise as well as hell,
innocence as well as “sin.” So the fall from paradise was not a “wrong turn.”
There is no guilt attached to it, unless you believe it to be. No one blames
you, apart from you.
When the young soul becomes mature, there is a shift to a “me centered”
way of observing and experiencing things. The illusion of power enhances
separation between souls instead of connectedness. Because of this, loneliness
and a sense of alienation set in within the soul. Although it is not really
aware of it, the soul becomes a fighter, a warrior for power. Power seems to be
the only thing that puts the mind at ease – for a while.
We distinguished a third stage in the development of soul consciousness
above: the stage of enlightenment, “second innocence” or old age. We will have
a lot to say about this stage and in particular about the transition from the
second to the third stage later on in this series. Now we will return to our
tale of the earth souls and we will clarify how the awakening of the ego stage
fit in with the appearance of human beings on earth.
The earth souls entering the ego stage; the appearance of human beings
The stage in which the earth souls explored plant and animal life
coincided with the stage of innocence or paradise on the inner level. Life
flourished on earth under the guidance and protection of spiritual beings from
the angelic and devic realms. (Devas work on the etheric level, i.e. closer to
the physical world than angels do.) The etheric bodies of plants and animals
were uncritically receptive to the caring and nurturing mother energies of the
angelic and devic realm. They had no inclination to “break free” or go off and
find their own way of doing things. There still was a great sense of oneness
and harmony among all living things.
The rise of the man-ape, however, marked a transformation point in the
development of consciousness. Essentially, by walking upright and through the
development of the brain, the consciousness that resided in the human ape got a
better grip on its environment. Consciousness as incarnated in the anthropoid
started to experience what it was like to have more control over its direct
surroundings. It started to discover its own power, its own ability to
influence its environment. It started to explore free will.
This development was not coincidental. It was a response to an inner
need felt by the earth souls, a need to explore individuality on deeper levels
than before. The growing self-awareness of the earth souls set the stage for
the appearance in biological terms of man, the human being we know.
When the earth souls were ready to enter the ego stage, the creation of
man enabled these souls to experience a life form with free will. It also endowed the incarnated consciousness with a
greater awareness of “me” as opposed to “other.” With this, the stage was set
for possible conflicts between “my interest” and “your interest,” “my desire”
and “your desire.” The individual was breaking away from the self-evident
oneness, the natural order of “giving and taking,” to find out what other roads
were available. This marked the “end of paradise” on earth, but we ask you to
conceive of this not as a tragic event but as a natural process, like the
seasons in your year. It was a natural turn of events that would ultimately
enable you in this day and age to balance divinity and individuality within
When earth soul consciousness entered the ego stage and started out to
explore “being human,” the devic and angelic influences slowly receded into the
background. It is in the very nature of these forces to respect the free will
of all energies they encounter. They will never exert their influence
uninvited. So ego consciousness got free reign and the earth souls got
acquainted with all the privileges and drawbacks of power. This also affected
the plant and animal kingdom. One might say that the emerging warrior energy
was partly absorbed by these non-human realms which created a sense of turmoil
within them. This is still present today.
When the earth souls craved new venues of experience, this made them
receptive to new outer influences as well. Here we want to draw attention
especially to types of extraterrestrial galactic influences which greatly
affected the maturing but still young earth souls. It is at this point of our
history also that the souls which we have called lightworker souls entered the
Galactic influences on man
By galactic or extraterrestrial influences, we mean influences from
collective energies associated with certain star systems, stars or planets. In
the universe, there are many levels or dimensions of existence. One planet or
star may exist in various dimensions, ranging from the material to the more
ethereal dimensions. In general, the galactic communities that influenced the
earth souls existed in a less “dense” or material reality than you exist in on
The galactic realms were inhabited by mature souls who were born long
before the earth souls and who were in the prime of their ego stage. When the
earth came to be inhabited by all kinds of life forms and ultimately by human
beings, the extraterrestrial realms watched this development with great
interest. The diversity and abundance of life forms drew their attention. They
felt something special was going on here.
Between the different galactic communities, a lot of fighting and
battling had been going on for a long time. This was a natural phenomenon, in a
sense, since the consciousness of the souls involved needed battle to find out all about me-centeredness and power. They
were exploring the workings of the ego and as they “progressed,” they became
very adept at manipulating consciousness. They became experts in subordinating
other souls or communities of souls to their rule by means of subtle and less
subtle psychic tools.
The interest that the galactic communities took in earth was mainly
egocentric. They felt an opportunity there for exerting their influence in new
and powerful ways. You might say that at that point, the intergalactic battles
had reached deadlock. When you fight one another over and over again you reach
a type of balance after a while, a division of power zones, so to speak. You
know each other so well that you know where there is room to act and where
there is not. The situation reached an impasse in this way and the galactic
enemies hoped for new opportunities on earth. They thought earth might provide
the stage for renewing the battle and overcoming the impasse.
The way in which the galactic communities sought to exert their
influence on earth was by manipulating the consciousness of earth souls. The
earth souls were particularly receptive to their influence when they entered
the ego stage. Before they did so, they were immune to any power motivated
outside force, because they had no inclination to exert power themselves. You
are immune to aggression and power when there is nothing inside you that these
energies can attach to. So the galactic energies could not access earth soul
consciousness before these souls decided to explore the energy of power
The transition to the ego stage made the earth souls vulnerable because,
apart from their intention to explore ego-consciousness, they were still
largely innocent and naive. So it was not difficult for the galactic powers to
impose their energies upon the consciousness of earth souls. The way they
operated is by means of consciousness manipulation or mind control. Their
technologies were very sophisticated. They had psychic tools mostly, not unlike
brainwashing through subconscious hypnotic suggestions. They operated on
psychic and astral levels but they influenced human beings up to the
material/physical level of the body. They influenced the development of the
human brain, narrowing down the range of experiences available to human beings.
They essentially stimulated fear-related patterns of thought and emotion. Fear
was already present in the earth soul’s consciousness as a result of the pain
and homesickness any young soul carries inside. The galactic powers took this
existing fear as their starting point to greatly enlarge the energies of fear
and subservience in the earth souls’ minds and emotions. This enabled them to
control human consciousness.
The galactic warriors subsequently tried to battle their previous
galactic enemies through the human being. The struggle of power over humanity
was a struggle between old galactic enemies that used human beings as their
The earth soul’s tender sense of individuality and autonomy was cut in
its prime by this violent intervention, this war for the heart of humanity.
However the galactic interveners could not truly take their freedom away.
However massive the extraterrestrial influence was, the divine essence within
each individual soul-consciousness remained indestructible. The soul cannot be
destroyed, although its free and divine nature may be veiled for a long time.
This relates to the fact that power is not, in the end, real. Power always
achieves its ends through the illusions of fear and ignorance. It can only hide
and veil things; it cannot truly create or destroy anything.
Moreover this very attack on the earth souls did not only bring darkness
to earth. It would unintentionally initiate a profound change in the
consciousness of the galactic warriors, a turn toward the next stage of
consciousness: enlightenment or “second innocence.”
Galactic roots of
How does the notion of lightworker souls tie in with this history?
Before they came to earth to incarnate in human bodies, lightworker souls
inhabited several star systems for a long time. In terms of the three-staged
development of consciousness, they spent a large part of their maturity there.
It is in this stage that they explored the ego-consciousness and all the power
issues related to it. It was the stage in which they explored darkness and in
which they greatly misused their power.
In this galactic stage, lightworkers were co-creators of the human being
as it developed. Just like other galactic forces, they had the intention of
using man as a straw puppet to win dominance in other parts of the universe. It
is hard to explain the techniques that the galactic powers used in their
battles because they do not match anything in your world, at least not to the
extent to which they perfected it. Essentially, galactic war technology was
based on a non-materialist science of energy. They knew the power of the psyche
and they knew that consciousness creates physical reality. Their metaphysics
were more adequate than the materialist views your current scientists embrace.
Because your established science conceives of consciousness as a result of
material processes instead of the other way around, it cannot fathom the
creative and causal powers of the mind.
At the age of the Cro-Magnon, the lightworker souls interfered with the
natural development of man at a genetic level. You should conceive of this
genetic interference as a top-down process of manipulation; they imprinted the
human brain/consciousness with particular thought forms that affected the
physical, cellular layer of the organism. The effect of these mental imprints
was that a robotic, mechanical element was installed in the human brain which
took away part of the natural strength and self awareness of the human being.
There was an artificial implant that made man more suitable as an instrument
for the extraterrestrials’ strategic goals.
By interfering in this way with the development of life on earth, the
lightworker souls violated the natural course of things. They did not respect
the integrity of the earth souls who inhabited the evolving human species. In a
way they robbed them of their newly gained free will.
There is a sense in which no one can rob any soul’s free will, as we
indicated at the end of the last paragraph. However in practical terms, because
of the extraterrestrial superiority at all levels, the earth souls lost their
sense of self-determination to an important extent. The lightworkers looked
upon the human beings as tools, as things
essentially, which helped them realize their goal. At that stage they were not
ready to respect life as valuable in itself. They did not recognize in “the
other” (their enemies or their slaves) a living soul like themselves.
Now there is no sense in placing any judgment on this, since it is all
part of a grand and profound development in consciousness. At the deepest level
there is no guilt, only free choice. There are no victims, no offenders;
ultimately there is only experience.
You, the lightworker souls who once employed these dark means of
oppression, judged yourself very severely for your deeds afterwards. Even now
you carry a deep sense of guilt inside, which you are partly aware of as the
feeling that you are not good enough
in whatever you do. This feeling originates from a misunderstanding.
It is important to understand that “lightworker” is not something you
simply are or aren’t. It is something you become,
when you go through the journey of experience: experiencing light and dark. Being
light and dark. If we had to name you, we would call you the Christed souls
instead of lightworkers.
Have you ever had the experience that a bad mistake you made eventually
changed things in positive and unexpected ways? Something similar happened as a
result of the galactic interference with earth and humanity. In the process of
imprinting the earth souls with their energies, the galactic forces actually
created a big melting pot of influences on earth. You might say that the battling
elements within the different galactic souls were implanted within humanity as
a race, thereby forcing the human being to find a way of uniting them or
bringing them to peaceful coexistence. Although this severely complicated the
journey of the earth souls, it would ultimately create the best chance for a
positive breakthrough, a way out of the stalemate situation the galactic
conflicts had reached.
Remember, all things are interconnected. There is a level at which the
earth souls and the galactic souls were and are driven by the same intent. This
is the angelic level. Every soul is in an angel in the deepest core. (See
multidimensionality and your light self, p.103). At the angelic
level, both the galactic warriors and the earth souls consented to take part in
the cosmic drama sketched above.
The galactic interference not only “helped” earth become the melting pot
it was intended to be, it also marked the beginning of a new type of
consciousness within the galactic warriors. In unforeseen ways it marked the
end of the ego stage, the end of maturity for them, and the beginning of
The end of the ego stage
The intergalactic wars had reached deadlock before earth came into play.
When the battle was renewed on earth, it was actually transposed to earth. With this transposition, something
started to change within galactic consciousness. The time of the galactic wars
Although they remained actively involved with humanity and earth, the
galactic souls slowly retreated into the role of observer. In this role, they
started to become aware of a particular kind of tiredness within their being. They sensed emptiness within.
Although the fighting and battling went on, it did not fascinate them as much
as it once did. They started to ask philosophical questions such as: what is
the meaning of my life; why am I fighting all the time; does power really make
me happy? By raising these questions, their war weariness grew stronger.
The galactic warriors were gradually reaching the end of their ego
stage. They had unknowingly transferred the energy of ego and power struggle to
earth, a place that was energetically open to this energy. The human souls were
at that time just starting to explore the ego stage of consciousness.
Within the consciousness of the galactic warriors, a certain space was
created: a space for doubt, a space for reflection. They entered a
transformation phase, which we will describe by distinguishing the following
Being unsatisfied by what ego based consciousness has to offer you,
longing for “something else:” the
beginning of the end.
Becoming aware of your ties to ego based consciousness, recognizing
and releasing the emotions and thoughts that go with it: the middle of the end.
Letting the old ego based energies inside you die, throwing off the
cocoon, becoming your new self: the end
of the end.
The awakening of a heart based consciousness within you, motivated by
love and freedom; helping others making the transition.
These four steps mark the transition from ego based to heart based
consciousness. Please remember that both the earth and humanity and the
galactic realms go through this phase, only not simultaneously.
Planet earth is now taking step 3. Many of you lightworkers are also
taking step 3, in tune with the earth’s inner process. Some of you are still struggling with step
2, and there are some who have arrived at step 4, tasting the delights of
heartfelt joy and inspiration.
Large parts of humanity, however, do not desire to release ego based
consciousness at all. They have not entered step 1 of the transition phase yet.
This is not something to judge or criticize or grieve over. Try to view it as a
natural process such as the growth of a plant. You do not judge a flower for
being a bud instead of being in full bloom. Try to see it in this light. Making
moral judgments about the destructive effects of ego based consciousness in
your world is based on lack of insight into spiritual dynamics. Moreover it
weakens your own strength, since the anger and frustration you sometimes feel
by watching the news or reading your newspapers cannot be transformed into
something constructive. It merely depletes you and lowers your own level of
vibration. Try to see things from a distance, from an attitude of trust. Try to
intuitively sense the undercurrents in collective consciousness, the things you
hardly read or hear about in the media.
It makes no sense to try and change souls who are still caught up in the
reality of ego based consciousness. They do not want your “help,” since they
are not yet open to the heart based energies hat you – lightworkers – wish to
share with them. Even though to you they seem to need help, as long as they
don’t want it, they don’t need it. It’s as simple as that.
Lightworkers are quite fond of giving and helping but they often lose
their power of discernment in this area. This leads to a waste of energy and
may result in self-doubt and disappointment on the lightworker’s part. Please
use your power of discernment here, as the desire to help can tragically become
a pitfall to lightworkers which prevents them from really completing step 3 of
the transition. (The notion of “helping” is discussed further in chapter….. and
in the channeling “Pitfalls on the way to becoming a healer,” part II).
We will now finish our description of the lightworkers at the end of
their ego stage. As we said, at that time you, among other galactic empires,
interfered with humanity when the modern human being took form. When you started
more and more to play the role of observer, you got tired of fighting.
The power you had been after for such a long time resulted in a type of
dominance which annihilated the unique and individual qualities of that which
you dominated. So nothing new could enter your reality. You killed everything
that was “other.” This way of proceeding made your reality static and
predictable after a while. When you became aware of the emptiness within the
struggle for power, your consciousness opened up to new possibilities. A
longing arose for “something else.”
You had completed step 1 of the transition to a heart based
consciousness. The energies of the ego, which had had free reign for eons,
settled down and allowed a space for “something else.” In your hearts a new
energy awakened, like a tender flower. A subtle and quiet voice began to speak
to you of “home,” a place you had once known but had lost track of along your
way. You sensed a homesickness within you.
Just like the earth souls, you had once experienced the oceanic state of
oneness from which every soul is born. You gradually evolved from this ocean as
individual units of consciousness. As these “little souls,” you had a great
zest for exploration, while at the same time carrying the painful memory inside
of a paradise you had had to leave behind.
Once you entered the ego stage of consciousness later on, this pain was
still inside you. What you essentially tried to do was to fill this empty spot
in your heart with power. You sought to fulfill yourselves by playing the game
of fighting and conquering.
Power is the energy that most opposes oneness. By exerting power, you
isolate yourself from “the other.” By struggling for power, you distance
yourself even more from home: the consciousness of unity. The fact that power
leads you away from home instead of bringing you closer to it was hidden from
you for a long time, since power is strongly interwoven with illusion. Power can easily hide its true
face to a naive and inexperienced soul. Power creates the illusion of
abundance, fulfillment, recognition and even love. The ego stage is an
unrestricted exploration of the area of power: of winning, losing, struggling,
dominating, manipulating, of being the offender and being the victim.
On the inner level, the soul gets torn apart during this stage. The ego
stage entails an attack on the soul’s integrity. By integrity we mean the
natural unity and wholeness of the soul. With the entrance of ego based
consciousness, the soul gets into a state of schizophrenia. It loses its
innocence. On the one hand, the soul battles and conquers; on the other hand,
it realizes that it is wrong to damage or destroy other living beings. It is
not so much wrong according to some objective law or judge. But the soul
subconsciously realizes that it is doing something that opposes its own divine
nature. It is in the nature of its own divine essence to create and give life. When the soul operates from a desire for
personal power, deep within a sense of guilt
arises. Again there is no external verdict on the soul which proclaims it to be
guilty. The soul itself realizes it is losing its innocence and purity. While
the soul pursues power on the outside, a growing sense of unworthiness is eating at it from the inside.
The stage of ego based consciousness is a natural stage in the journey
of the soul. Actually it involves the full exploration of one aspect of the
soul’s being: the will. Your will constitutes the bridge between the inner and
the outer world. The will is that part of you that focuses your soul’s energy
into the material world. The will may be inspired by the desire for power or by
the desire for oneness. This depends on the state of your inner awareness. When
a soul reaches the end of the ego stage, the will becomes more and more an
extension of the heart. The ego or the personal will is not destroyed but it is
flowing in accordance with the heart’s wisdom and inspiration. At this point
the ego joyfully accepts the heart as its spiritual guide. The natural
wholeness of the soul is restored.
When you, the lightworker souls, arrived in step 2 of the transition
from ego to heart based consciousness, you felt the sincere desire to make
right what you had done wrong on earth. You realized that you had ill treated
the living human beings on earth and that you had hindered the free expression
and development of the earth souls. You realized that you had violated life
itself by trying to manipulate and control it according to your needs. You
wanted to release human beings from the bonds of fear and limitation which had
brought much darkness into their lives, and you felt you could accomplish most
in this respect by incarnating into human bodies yourself. So you incarnated into human bodies, whose genetic make-up was partly
created by yourself, in order to transform your creations from the inside.
The souls who went to earth with this mission intended to spread Light into
their own manipulated creations.
Hence they are called lightworkers. You made the decision to do this –
and to become entangled in a whole series of earth lives – from a newborn sense
of responsibility and also from the heartfelt urge to take this karmic burden
upon you, so that you would be able to fully let go of the past.
© Pamela Kribbe
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