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Pamelas \u010denelings ar Mariju Magdal\u0113nu<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Angliski tulkoju\u0161i Marija Baesa un Franks Tehans<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0101rgie draugi, es esmu j\u016bsu m\u0101sa, Marija Magdal\u0113na. Es esmu tie\u0161i blakus jums k\u0101 j\u016bsu \u013coti tuvs draugs. Es neesmu pacelta jums p\u0101ri, bet k\u0101da, kuru j\u016bs paz\u012bstat iek\u0161ien\u0113. Saj\u016btiet uz br\u012bdi m\u016bsu dzi\u013co saikni \u2013 m\u0113s esam viens, da\u013ca no pa\u0161u \u0123imenes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Es ar\u012b esmu nostaig\u0101jusi cilv\u0113ka b\u016btnes ce\u013cu uz Zemes, uzzin\u0101jusi un izjutusi tur dzi\u013cumus, un tikusi spo\u017eas un dz\u012bvas Gaismas skarta, kas iedvesmoja un pa\u0146\u0113ma sav\u0101 var\u0101 mani, un uzvedin\u0101ja mani un rad\u012bja manu sapni un ilgas p\u0113c br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bg\u0101kas un lab\u0101kas dz\u012bves uz Zemes. Man ir zin\u0101mas abas gal\u0113j\u012bbas, k\u0101 Gaisma, t\u0101 ar\u012b tumsa. \u0160\u012bs gal\u0113j\u012bbas ir poli, kas sader kop\u0101, tie ir viens otra dzin\u0113jsp\u0113ks, j\u016bs var\u0113tu teikt. Liekas, ka dz\u012bves b\u016bt\u012bba ir pretstatos: Gaism\u0101 un tums\u0101. Saj\u016btas, ko t\u0101s izsauc, izskat\u0101s pret\u0113jas, ta\u010du starp t\u0101m ir sl\u0113pta saikne, t\u0101s nevar str\u0101d\u0101t viena bez otras. Gaismas pieredze ir iesp\u0113jama vien\u012bgi, pieredzot Gaismas tr\u016bkumu, un kontrast\u0101 ar t\u0101s pretstatu, tumsu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nekad Gaisma nav redzam\u0101ka k\u0101 tad, kad t\u0101 par\u0101d\u0101s no tumsas. Vienk\u0101r\u0161i padom\u0101jiet par pirmajiem Saules stariem, dienai mostoties, kad silta r\u012bta gaisma apskalo pasauli. Cik dzi\u013ci tas var skart j\u016bs, \u012bpa\u0161i, kad j\u016bs izk\u013c\u016bstat no aukstas, tum\u0161as nakts. Kontrasts rada dinamiku \u2013 dz\u012bvi, kust\u012bbu, izaugsmi, izmai\u0146as \u2013 t\u0101 tumsa funkcion\u0113 m\u016bsu dz\u012bv\u0113s. Tom\u0113r cilv\u0113ki bie\u017ei izj\u016bt tumsu k\u0101 Gaismas antit\u0113zi, nevis k\u0101 dzin\u0113jsp\u0113ku izmai\u0146\u0101m un izaugsmei, bet k\u0101 slazdu vai bedri, kur j\u016bs no\u0137er un kur j\u016bs vairs nevar pakust\u0113ties. No \u0161\u012bs dzi\u013c\u0101s bedres liekas, ka j\u016bs esat zaud\u0113ju\u0161i kontaktu ar Gaismu, it k\u0101 t\u0101 b\u016btu atvienota no jums.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

J\u016bs visi zin\u0101t, ka ar Gaismas atvienot\u012bbas saj\u016btas psihisko st\u0101vokli tiek at\u0146emta j\u0113gas un m\u0113r\u0137a saj\u016bta j\u016bsu dz\u012bv\u0113. Tas faktiski noz\u012bm\u0113 b\u016bt miru\u0161am. Vien\u012bgais iesp\u0113jamas ce\u013c\u0161 nomirt ir nevis fizisk\u0101 n\u0101ve, bet p\u0101rtraukt jebkuru kust\u012bbu sav\u0101 sird\u012b, sav\u0101s saj\u016bt\u0101s, sav\u0101s dom\u0101s. Paties\u012bb\u0101 n\u0101ve neeksist\u0113, j\u016bsu dv\u0113sele ir m\u016b\u017e\u012bga un dz\u012bvo t\u0101l\u0101k. Viss, kas jums ir mirst\u012bgs, ir tikai forma, j\u016bsu b\u016bt\u012bba ir m\u016b\u017e\u012bga un nevar nomirt. Tom\u0113r j\u016bs varat uz laiku pazaud\u0113t no redzesloka savu b\u016bt\u012bbu t\u0101d\u0101 m\u0113r\u0101, ka j\u016bs iek\u0161\u0113ji sastingstat un p\u0101rtraucat kust\u0113ties. J\u016bs esat miru\u0161i iek\u0161\u0113ji, un j\u016bs j\u016btaties \u0101rk\u0101rt\u012bgi nom\u0101kti. Tas ir \u0101rk\u0101rt\u012bgi moko\u0161s st\u0101voklis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ce\u013cojiet kop\u0101 ar manu uz br\u012bdi. Nolaidieties ar mani uz \u0161o nom\u0101kto st\u0101vokli un iel\u016bkojieties taj\u0101 ar atv\u0113rtu pr\u0101tu. Kas notiek, ja k\u0101ds zaud\u0113 visas cer\u012bbas, ieraujas sev\u012b un j\u016btas bezsp\u0113c\u012bgs pret saj\u016bt\u0101m, kuru avots ir iek\u0161ien\u0113? Parasti \u0161o reakciju izraisa \u0101r\u0113ji notikumi, kas ir graujo\u0161i, notikumi, ko persona nesp\u0113j iek\u013caut vi\u0146a vai vi\u0146as attieksmes ietvaros un kas padara visu \u0161\u012bs personas dz\u012bv\u0113 nenoteiktu. T\u0101s var b\u016bt lielas lietas, t\u0101das k\u0101 k\u0101da tuvinieka n\u0101ve, saslim\u0161ana, sava darba zaud\u0113\u0161ana vai attiec\u012bbu sairums. Tie ir notikumi, kas dzi\u013ci ietekm\u0113 cilv\u0113kus un var novest bezdibe\u0146a mal\u0101.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tom\u0113r tumsa reiz\u0113m var atkl\u0101t sevi no iek\u0161ienes bez skaidra iemesla \u0101rpus\u0113. Vecas emocion\u0101las nastas, ko j\u016bs reiz esat noglab\u0101ju\u0161i dv\u0113seles atmi\u0146\u0101, uzn\u0101k virspus\u0113. S\u0101p\u012bgas pieredzes, iesp\u0113jams, izrieto\u0161as no iepriek\u0161\u0113j\u0101m dz\u012bv\u0113m, saskrien no j\u016bsu dzi\u013cuma, un jums ir dar\u012b\u0161ana ar tum\u0161\u0101m saj\u016bt\u0101m, bail\u0113m un \u0161aub\u0101m. Dzi\u013cas tr\u016bkuma, vientul\u012bbas, sak\u0101ves pieredzes var ien\u0101kt j\u016bsu psih\u0113 bez iemesla. Tas var likt jums zaud\u0113t savu pamatu t\u0101pat k\u0101 jebkur\u0161 \u0101r\u0113js notikums, kas notiek ar jums.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kad k\u0101ds iekr\u012bt depresij\u0101, dv\u0113seles tum\u0161aj\u0101 nakt\u012b, tas vienm\u0113r liek piedz\u012bvot, ka j\u016btaties apr\u012bti un nesp\u0113j\u012bgi tikt gal\u0101 ar vis\u0101m emocij\u0101m. S\u0101p\u012bgo, smago emociju pl\u016bsma liekas par lielu, lai to panestu. J\u016bs esat to piev\u0101r\u0113ts jeb ir t\u0101da saj\u016bta, un j\u016bs izsl\u0113dzaties dzi\u013cas bezsp\u0113c\u012bbas saj\u016btas d\u0113\u013c. Br\u012bd\u012b, kad j\u016bs nov\u0113r\u0161aties un atsak\u0101ties skat\u012bties emocij\u0101m sej\u0101, j\u016bs esat iestr\u0113dzis. \u0160\u012bs emocijas grib pl\u016bst, emocij\u0101m ir svar\u012bgi, ka vi\u0146as turpina iet uz priek\u0161u l\u012bdz\u012bgi, k\u0101 uzpl\u016bst liels vilnis krast\u0101. Bet j\u016bs baid\u0101ties to \u013caut, un j\u016bs atsak\u0101ties iet l\u012bdzi \u0161ai kust\u012bbai, un j\u016bs atk\u0101pjaties no \u0161\u012bm pl\u016bsto\u0161aj\u0101m emocij\u0101m. J\u016bs uzb\u016bv\u0113jat dambi, barjeru un sak\u0101t: \u201cEs nevaru tikt ar to gal\u0101. Es negribu to. Es gribu beigt ar to.\u201d J\u016bsu reakcija, bie\u017ei gal\u012bgas bezsp\u0113c\u012bbas d\u0113\u013c, rada depresiju, kas ir sastinguma un nosl\u0113gt\u012bbas no dz\u012bves st\u0101voklis. Laika gait\u0101 \u0161\u012b situ\u0101cija k\u013c\u016bs nepanesama, un j\u016bs vairs nev\u0113laties dz\u012bvot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

No zemes perspekt\u012bvas j\u016bs gribat nomirt, jo dz\u012bve ir nepanesama. Skatoties no dv\u0113seles perspekt\u012bvas, j\u016bs esat miru\u0161i, un \u0161\u012b pieredze ir tik nepanesama, ka j\u016bs gribat dar\u012bt visu iesp\u0113jamo un izbeigt \u0161o situ\u0101ciju. \u0160\u012b n\u0101ves v\u0113lme b\u016bt\u012bb\u0101 ir v\u0113lme p\u0113c p\u0101rmai\u0146\u0101m, v\u0113lme dz\u012bvot no jauna. Cilv\u0113kiem, kuri grib izdar\u012bt pa\u0161n\u0101v\u012bbu, ir dzi\u013ca v\u0113lme dz\u012bvot, nevis mirt. Tie\u0161i \u0161\u012b iek\u0161\u0113j\u0101s n\u0101ves saj\u016bta ir t\u0101, kas noved vi\u0146us \u0101rk\u0101rt\u0113j\u0101 izmisum\u0101. T\u0101 ir vi\u0146u v\u0113lme dz\u012bvot, kas liek vi\u0146iem p\u0101rtraukt vi\u0146u fizisko dz\u012bvi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kad j\u016bs piedz\u012bvojat depresiju, j\u016bsos ir dzi\u013cas pretest\u012bbas un tai pat laik\u0101 \u0101rk\u0101rt\u012bgas ievainojam\u012bbas kombin\u0101cija. Depresija ir veids, k\u0101 aizsarg\u0101ties pret milz\u012bga sp\u0113ka emocij\u0101m, kas draud apr\u012bt j\u016bs. J\u016bs dom\u0101jat, ka t\u0101s izn\u012bcin\u0101s j\u016bs, t\u0101p\u0113c sav\u0101 bezsp\u0113c\u012bb\u0101 j\u016bs b\u016bv\u0113jat ap sevi apvalku, j\u016bs ietinaties k\u016bni\u0146\u0101, nev\u0113l\u0113damies vai nesp\u0113dami kaut ko sajust. J\u016bs nev\u0113laties b\u016bt \u0161eit vairs, t\u0101pat k\u0101 visp\u0101rzin\u0101mais strauss ar savu galvu smilt\u012bs. Smilt\u012bs j\u016bs smokat, un tom\u0113r tas liekas vien\u012bgais iesp\u0113jams risin\u0101jums. Un p\u0113c k\u0101da laika j\u016bs vairs nesp\u0113jat izvilkt savu galvu no smilt\u012bm, depresijas. J\u016bs esat tik atsl\u0113gti no dz\u012bves un jebkur\u0101m saj\u016bt\u0101m, ka j\u016bs vairs nesp\u0113jat pagriezt lietas uz otru pusi un veikt izmai\u0146as, izv\u0113le teikt \u201cj\u0101\u201d sav\u0101 emocij\u0101m, liekas, ir p\u0101ri j\u016bsu sp\u0113kiem. Depresija tagad ir sasniegusi kulmin\u0101ciju.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

No vienas puses, j\u016bs nevarat pie\u0146emt savas bai\u013cu, izmisuma, skumju un vientul\u012bbas emocijas vai dal\u012bties taj\u0101s ar citiem, bet no otras puses, j\u016bs zin\u0101t un j\u016btat, ka ir moko\u0161i s\u0101p\u012bgi dz\u012bvot bez emocij\u0101m, ka t\u0101 ir n\u0101ves forma, absol\u016bta atteik\u0161an\u0101s no j\u016bsu dz\u012bves kodola. P\u0113c k\u0101da laika j\u016bs v\u0113laties atkal just. Neju\u0161anas s\u0101pes ir liel\u0101kas par j\u016bsu emociju ju\u0161anas<\/em> s\u0101p\u0113m. T\u0101 ir j\u016bsu atpest\u012b\u0161ana, un tas ir pagrieziena punkts. Atteik\u0161an\u0101s just un teik\u0161ana: \u201cN\u0113, es nevaru, es negribu to, es gribu b\u016bt miris, es gribu pazust,\u201d padara j\u016bs tik dobju un tuk\u0161u iek\u0161ien\u0113, ka j\u016bs vairs nevarat to iztur\u0113t. Tas, kas notiek no dv\u0113seles perspekt\u012bvas, ir tas, ka dz\u012bve ir aizg\u0101jusi p\u0101r\u0101k t\u0101lu, to nevar aiztur\u0113t bezgal\u012bgi. Kad dz\u012bv\u012bbas sp\u0113ks ir stingri apvald\u012bts uz \u013coti ilgu laiku, vi\u0146\u0161 rada pret\u0113ju sp\u0113ku, kas galu gal\u0101 izlau\u017eas. Sp\u0113ku paisuma vilnim, kas grib izskriet krast\u0101 nevar attur\u0113t m\u016b\u017e\u012bgi. Noteikt\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b no j\u016bsu iek\u0161ienes uzpeld \u201cj\u0101\u201d, pat ja j\u016bs nezin\u0101t par t\u0101 nodomu. Dz\u012bv\u0113 nekas nav statisks, v\u0113l\u0113\u0161an\u0101s dz\u012bvot ir neapturama. Kad kulmin\u0101cija ir sasniegta, j\u016bs rad\u0101t notikumus sav\u0101 dz\u012bv\u0113, kas nodro\u0161ina izmai\u0146as, kas rada izr\u0101vienu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Da\u017ek\u0101rt tas notiek pa\u0161n\u0101v\u012bbas m\u0113\u0123in\u0101juma veid\u0101. Ja tas neizdodas, var b\u016bt aug\u0161upejo\u0161a spir\u0101le, jo \u0161\u012bs personas cie\u0161anas k\u013c\u016bst \u013coti redzamas \u0101rpasaul\u0113. Kad k\u0101ds atkl\u0101j, cik daudz citi cilv\u0113ki r\u016bp\u0113jas par vi\u0146u, tur var rasties atv\u0113rt\u012bba liel\u0101kai Gaismai un sapratnes un l\u012bdzj\u016bt\u012bbas sa\u0146em\u0161anai. Tom\u0113r var ar\u012b gad\u012bties, ka k\u0101ds neatveras un paliek nom\u0101kts. Nav noteiktas receptes, lai notiktu izr\u0101viens. Ta\u010du dz\u012bve ir stumjo\u0161ais un virzo\u0161ais sp\u0113ks, kas padara neiesp\u0113jamu bezgal\u012bgu kav\u0113\u0161anos statisk\u0101 apzi\u0146as st\u0101vokl\u012b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pat ja pasaul\u012bg\u0101 dz\u012bve beidzas, at\u0146emot savu pa\u0161a dz\u012bv\u012bbu, jums nekav\u0113joties ir j\u0101saskaras ar otras puses izv\u0113l\u0113m, jo jums v\u0113l j\u0101piedz\u012bvo savas saj\u016btas tur. Nom\u0101kt\u012bba, kas bija, dz\u012bvam esot, ar sav\u0101m s\u0101pju un rai\u017eu saj\u016bt\u0101m var tagad izn\u0101kt priek\u0161\u0101 pat v\u0113l kras\u0101k un maz\u0101k sl\u0113pt\u0101 veid\u0101. Da\u017ereiz astr\u0101l\u0101 sf\u0113ra, kurp j\u016bs galu gal\u0101 non\u0101kat p\u0113c n\u0101ves, konfront\u0113 j\u016bs tie\u0161i ar t\u0101m emocij\u0101m, kuras j\u016bs apspied\u0101t, un caur to t\u0101s s\u0101k pl\u016bst atkal. Piem\u0113ram, k\u0101ds var just izmisumu un \u0161ausmas, kad vi\u0146\u0161 ir p\u0101rg\u0101jis un atkl\u0101j, ka dz\u012bve tie\u0161\u0101m nav beigusies. Vai ar\u012b vi\u0146i redz savas \u0123imenes emocijas uz Zemes, vi\u0146u b\u0113das un skumjas, un tas vi\u0146us \u013coti ietekm\u0113. T\u0101d\u0101 savi\u013c\u0146ojum\u0101 jauna darb\u012bba var iekustin\u0101t dv\u0113seli, kura ir p\u0101rg\u0101jusi. Tas var atvest pie izr\u0101viena, padarot \u0161o dv\u0113seli atv\u0113rtu pal\u012bdz\u012bbai no gidu puses, kuri vienm\u0113r ir tur, gan uz Zemes, gan debes\u012bs. Pal\u012bdz\u012bba tur ir vienm\u0113r<\/em>, ja j\u016bs esat tai atv\u0113rti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nav svar\u012bgi, k\u0101d\u0101 veid\u0101 j\u016bs lokaties vai grie\u017eaties, dz\u012bv\u012bba ir daudz sp\u0113c\u012bg\u0101ka par jebkuru v\u0113lmi p\u0113c n\u0101ves. Dz\u012bv\u012bba vienm\u0113r p\u0101r\u0146em savas ties\u012bbas b\u016bt, j\u016bs nevarat to non\u0101v\u0113t. T\u0101p\u0113c vienm\u0113r ir cer\u012bba. Turiet sevi pie \u0161\u012bs domas un ar\u012b citus, kurus j\u016bs redzat cie\u0161am. Lietas reiz\u0113m var \u0161\u0137ist tik bezcer\u012bgas, bet vienm\u0113r ir cita perspekt\u012bva, pat ja j\u016bs nevarat iedom\u0101ties sav\u0101 pr\u0101t\u0101, k\u0101 tas var b\u016bt un k\u0101 p\u0101rmai\u0146as notiks. Dz\u012bv\u012bba vienm\u0113r ir stipr\u0101ka par n\u0101vi, Gaisma ir stipr\u0101ka par tumsu. \u016adens galu gal\u0101 p\u0101rraus dambi, jo \u016bdenim ir sp\u0113ks kust\u012bbai: tas gr\u016b\u017e, vi\u0146\u0161 ir dz\u012bvs!<\/em> \u016adens sp\u0113ks ir stipr\u0101ks par pretojo\u0161os sp\u0113ku, kas grib to apvald\u012bt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saj\u016btiet sev\u012b dz\u012bv\u012bbas sp\u0113ku uz br\u012bdi. Katrs no jums da\u017ereiz atrod sev\u012b da\u013cas, kas ir iestr\u0113gu\u0161as, \u0161ablonus, kas atk\u0101rto sevi bezgal\u012bgi: \u0161aubas par sevi, mazv\u0113rt\u012bbas saj\u016btu, nedro\u0161\u012bbu, neuztic\u0113\u0161anos, dusmas, pretest\u012bbu. Tagad izt\u0113lojieties, ka \u0161\u012bs da\u013cas patie\u0161\u0101m tur ir un ka dz\u012bve tai pat laik\u0101 turpina pl\u016bst t\u0101m apk\u0101rt. \u016adens turpina pl\u016bst, un, lai gan straum\u0113 joproj\u0101m ir paliku\u0161i laukakme\u0146i, kas izskat\u0101s fiks\u0113ti un neizkustin\u0101mi, tie ir padilu\u0161i no gar\u0101m pl\u016bsto\u0161\u0101 \u016bdens kust\u012bbas un gr\u016bdieniem. Tas aiz\u0146em laiku, bet neaizmirstiet, kas j\u016bs esat: j\u016bs esat dz\u012bvs \u016bdens!<\/em> Jo vair\u0101k j\u016bs atg\u0101din\u0101t sev par to, jo vair\u0101k atpras\u0101t ener\u0123iju no \u0161iem laukakme\u0146iem un akme\u0146iem, kas gu\u013c straum\u0113. Tur turpina b\u016bt s\u0101pes no pag\u0101tnes. Jums nav j\u0101apsl\u0101p\u0113 t\u0101s vai j\u0101padara nepieder\u012bgas, bet jums nav ar\u012b j\u0101stiepj \u0161ie laukakme\u0146i \u0101r\u0101 no upes. Jums vien\u012bgi j\u0101atg\u0101dina sev, ka j\u016bs esat \u016bdens!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Var b\u016bt gr\u016bti reiz\u0113m da\u013c\u0101, ko j\u016bs esat identific\u0113ju\u0161i k\u0101 \u0161os laukakme\u0146us, kas blo\u0137\u0113 j\u016bsu ener\u0123iju: \u201cEs esmu t\u0101ds, kuram nav pien\u0101c\u012bga pamata, man ir smaga saj\u016bta m\u0101j\u0101s uz Zemes, es nesu skumjas un traumas no pag\u0101tnes.\u201d Un tas viss ir taisn\u012bba, bet izt\u0113lojieties uz br\u012bdi \u0161os priek\u0161status k\u0101 klintis vai akme\u0146us gar\u0101, plat\u0101 up\u0113 \u2013 milz\u012bg\u0101 \u016bdensce\u013c\u0101. Jo tas ir tas, kas j\u016bs esat, tas ir j\u016bsu patiesais dz\u012bv\u012bbas sp\u0113ks. T\u0101 ir j\u016bsu dv\u0113sele, kura pl\u016bst un pl\u016bst, vienm\u0113r pa savu ce\u013cu: dz\u012bva, burbu\u013cojo\u0161a, steidz\u012bga un trok\u0161\u0146aina, p\u0113to\u0161a un atkl\u0101jo\u0161a. \u0160\u012b pl\u016bsma nev\u0113rt\u0113 \u0161os laukakme\u0146us, kurus vi\u0146a sastop, vi\u0146a aprij tos<\/em>. Jums ir izv\u0113le!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Protams, j\u016bs reiz\u0113m iespr\u016bstat ar savu apzi\u0146u t\u0101d\u0101 blo\u0137\u0113jum\u0101, kad j\u016bs s\u0101kat identific\u0113t to p\u0101r\u0101k ilgi. Bet j\u016bs varat atdal\u012bties no \u0161o blo\u0137\u0113juma, vienk\u0101r\u0161i izj\u016btot sevi k\u0101 pl\u016bsto\u0161u \u016bdeni. Atcerieties, ka j\u016bs esat dz\u012bva dv\u0113sele-apzi\u0146a, kura vienm\u0113r p\u0101rvietojas un pl\u016bst un nav saist\u012bta ar \u0161iem laukakme\u0146iem \u2013 j\u016bs esat br\u012bvi<\/em>. Jo vair\u0101k j\u016bs att\u0101lin\u0101siet savu apzi\u0146u no \u0161iem blo\u0137\u0113jumiem, klint\u012bm, kas tur gu\u013c, jo viegl\u0101k t\u0101s padosies pl\u016bsmai. T\u0101s atbr\u012bvosies \u0101tr\u0101k, jo j\u016bs aiziesiet no t\u0101m un identific\u0113siet sevi k\u0101 kust\u012bgu \u016bdeni. \u016adens ir j\u016bsu dv\u0113sele, un vi\u0146\u0161 nav apturams<\/em>. Saj\u016btiet vi\u0146a pl\u016b\u0161anu un kust\u012bbu, un viz\u0113\u0161anu. Izt\u0113lojieties, k\u0101 vi\u0146\u0161 skalojas p\u0101r jums, un saj\u016btiet burbu\u013co\u0161anas sp\u0113ku, Gaismu, kas dzirkst\u012b vi\u0146\u0101. Saj\u016btiet, k\u0101 j\u016bsu dv\u0113sele sav\u0101 dzi\u013c\u0101kaj\u0101 da\u013c\u0101 nav apdraud\u0113ta ar tumsu, kuru j\u016bs pieredzat, ar tiem laukakme\u0146iem, kas \u0161\u0137iet tik mas\u012bvi un nepiek\u0101p\u012bgi. J\u016bsu dv\u0113sele neuztraucas par to, kas tur ir, jo vi\u0146a zina, ka laukakme\u0146i tur iederas, tie ir da\u013ca no dz\u012bves ainavas. M\u0113\u0123iniet, kad j\u016bs esat iestr\u0113dzis ar t\u0101du laukakmeni, izdzird\u0113t \u016bdens pl\u016b\u0161anu. Atcerieties \u016bdeni un vieglumu, ar kuru vi\u0146\u0161 pl\u016bst.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jums nav j\u0101dara viss pa\u0161am. Dz\u012bve pied\u0101v\u0101 jums bezgal\u012bgas izdev\u012bbas un iesp\u0113jas. Tas var\u0113tu j\u016bs da\u017ereiz vest dzi\u013c\u0101s, tum\u0161\u0101s ielej\u0101s, bet tas ar\u012b mudina j\u016bs atkal uz Gaismu. Pat tad, kad jums ir saj\u016bta, ka vairs nevarat t\u0101l\u0101k c\u012bn\u012bties, un j\u016bs neredzat, k\u0101 lietas var\u0113tu k\u0101dreiz griezties uz labo pusi, dz\u012bve joproj\u0101m mudina j\u016bs. Dz\u012bves m\u0101ksla ir saglab\u0101t savu tic\u012bbu, pat tad, kad \u0161\u0137iet, ka nekas nav palicis, kam tic\u0113t, un kad viss, par ko j\u016bs bij\u0101t dro\u0161i, ir pazudis no j\u016bsu dz\u012bves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0160aj\u0101 laik\u0101 uz Zemes daudzi cilv\u0113ki ir iesaist\u012bti sen\u0101s tumsas p\u0101rstr\u0101d\u0113, dv\u0113seles da\u013cas tie\u0161i tagad n\u0101k uz Gaismu un v\u0113las b\u016bt redzamas. Un k\u0101p\u0113c tas t\u0101 ir? Jo j\u016bs izdar\u0101t l\u0113cienu uz priek\u0161u<\/em>. Tas patie\u0161\u0101m ir l\u0113ciens cilv\u0113ces apzi\u0146as evol\u016bcij\u0101. \u0160o l\u0113cienu nevar veikt bez rokas pasnieg\u0161anas tum\u0161\u0101kaj\u0101m viet\u0101m j\u016bsu apzi\u0146\u0101, t\u0101m, kas ir piepild\u012btas ar bail\u0113m, neuztic\u0113\u0161anos vai ar \u013coti dzi\u013c\u0101m skumj\u0101m par visu, ko j\u016bs esat pieredz\u0113ju\u0161i uz Zemes. Nebaidieties no tumsas \u2013 sveiciet to!<\/em> Kad j\u016bs sak\u0101t \u201cj\u0101\u201d tumsai, t\u0101 s\u0101k atbr\u012bvoties un pl\u016bst, un t\u0101 ir m\u0101ksla dz\u012bvot \u0161o dz\u012bvi. Un, kad j\u016bs j\u016btat: \u201cEs patie\u0161\u0101m nevaru teikt \u201cj\u0101\u201d tam,\u201d atcerieties, ka j\u016bsos ir kaut kas, kas joproj\u0101m saka \u201cj\u0101\u201d. Tas ir tas, kas pasarg\u0101s j\u016bs un ved\u012bs j\u016bs t\u0101l\u0101k uz priek\u0161u \u2013 ticiet dz\u012bvei<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Es j\u016bs visus m\u012blu, j\u016bs esat d\u0101rgi man. Varb\u016bt j\u016bs dom\u0101jat: \u201cK\u0101 tas var b\u016bt? Tu nevari zin\u0101t m\u016bs visus person\u012bgi.\u201d Bet j\u016bs k\u0101 cilv\u0113ki nezin\u0101t vai neaptverat, cik pla\u0161s paties\u012bb\u0101 ir dv\u0113se\u013cu t\u012bkls. Kad j\u016bs esat savienoju\u0161ies no dv\u0113seles ar citu, tas ir past\u0101v\u012bgs savienojums. Vienreiz izkalta saikne nep\u0101rtr\u016bks cauri laikiem, jo m\u016bsu dimensij\u0101 laika nav<\/em>. Dz\u012bvs t\u012bkls savieno m\u016bs k\u0101 dv\u0113seles. M\u0113s dal\u0101mies zin\u0101maj\u0101 v\u0113stur\u0113, zin\u0101maj\u0101s v\u0113lm\u0113s, liesm\u0101, kas reiz tika iedegta m\u016bsu apzi\u0146\u0101. Ar \u0161o liesmu Zeme tiek pak\u0101peniski apgaismota. Pamodusies apzi\u0146a visos cilv\u0113kos sapulc\u0113s m\u016bs kop\u0101 un rad\u012bs jaunu pamatu, no kura tas l\u0113ciens apzi\u0146\u0101 patie\u0161\u0101m notiks. Jums nav j\u0101apsver tas. Saj\u016btiet vareno dz\u012bves gr\u016bdienu, ne tikai j\u016bsos, bet ar\u012b daudzos citos, caur kuriem apzi\u0146as vilnis pl\u016bst p\u0101r Zemi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00a9 Pamela Kribbe
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Pamelas \u010denelings ar Mariju Magdal\u0113nu Angliski tulkoju\u0161i Marija Baesa un Franks Tehans D\u0101rgie draugi, es esmu j\u016bsu m\u0101sa, Marija Magdal\u0113na. Es esmu tie\u0161i blakus jums k\u0101 j\u016bsu \u013coti tuvs draugs. Es neesmu pacelta jums p\u0101ri, bet k\u0101da, kuru j\u016bs paz\u012bstat iek\u0161ien\u0113. Saj\u016btiet uz br\u012bdi m\u016bsu dzi\u013co saikni \u2013 m\u0113s esam viens, da\u013ca no pa\u0161u…<\/p>\n

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